It's hard to accept that I won't ever be something great, but it's harder to wrap my head around the concept that I won't ever be great to anyone. I'm as boring and as average as they come, and not much else. I lead a very mediocre life--wrought with the mundane perils of suburban life--and it's kind of depressing.
I don't want fame and fortune and all that ridiculous stuff. I just want to mean something to somebody. I want to stand out for just one person, and have them recognize me for the few differences I possess.
I don't think like other people. I don't act like other people. I don't even dream like other people, and yet it's nowhere near enough to earn a spot in someone's mind.
I'm sick of being considered dangerous and crazy. It's annoying, if nothing else. I'm not a danger to anyone, including myself, and well, I might just be crazy, but it's not always a bad thing. I'm not a demon; at least, I try not to be...
It's days like these that make me want to crawl into a hole and cry for awhile, to turn my back on the entire world and tell them all to screw it.
Scratch what I said before. I am a demon. At least I know it, though, right? At least I have that to fall back on.
If all else fails, I can be evil. Great.
15 years ago
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