SB09! and a Little Nostalgia.

So much has changed, and yet it's still the same: Four young girls standing on a warm beach, sunglasses on and cold drinks in their hands.

It's spring break of their senior year, and they're having the time of their lives.

Two days ago, that was us. We were together and smiling and warm and tan. Down in the Riviera Maya, a small strip of beach in Mexico where happiness comes in an all-inclusive package.

I've never been so relaxed in my whole life. So content. So perfectly at ease.

And we were together. That's what made the difference to me. The four of us got to spend some quality best friend time together before the whole world got turned upside down.

In four months, we will be separated. Probably for quite awhile. Cassie and I will leave for MSU, Kailey will go to Central, and Pinks will stay behind to go to U of D. We will be separated by miles and miles of highway...for the first time in our lives.

I don't know what I'll do without them. It's finally starting to hit me, the permanence of this transition. I won't be able to call Kailey at any time and jump in my car to see her. No more lounging out at Cassie's pool. No spur-of-the-moment shopping trips with Pinks. It'll all be over.

I'll be missing the others, too, of course. Querida and Chiquita will be staying here to go to Macomb, and I don't know what I'll do without them. All the friends I have in school will vanish off to various universities, and I may never see them again. My big brother Rojito--with whom I've become irrevocably close in the past two months--will be stuck here, too, going to school and working too hard for his own good.

It's going to kill me.

What about family? At least I'll be able to see them when I come home. There's no guarantees with friends, though. No promises, no nothing. It's going to be so hard.

Everyone will be so far away! The hour and a half drive will feel like years. I want to go so, so bad...but at what price? What am I willing to sacrifice? This is what I want, though, so I guess there's no limit.

Maybe I'll be okay. Maybe it won't kill me after all...

No, it will. I can already see it.

The future, my friends, looks bittersweet. And that's the reality I've suddenly found.

Back Again

Yes, I'm back. I know I was away for awhile... But quite a bit happened between then and now, so I've got a lot to say.

I turned eighteen last Thursday. Yes, I am officially an adult. :D To celebrate, while we were at States this weekend for DI, a bunch of us went to the casino... Totally worth it. We had an awesome time. :]

Speaking of DI, we took second this weekend at States and bequeathed our spot at Globals to the third-place team [because we can't go...senior week...total BS but we've gotten over it]. We were very excited to do so well, especially when we saw that we took first in IC--something we have definitely spent the past nine years earning.

So I'm excited. But I'm also very, very sad. DI is over. An entire era of my life, gone. It still hasn't hit me--I think it'll sink in sometime in May.

This post is for you guys. For the beautiful DI people who have made me who I am today. I love you all, and thank you for nine years of wonder, amazement, and hilarious fun.

I'll be back soon. The only reason I haven't posted is because I'm in creative writing...a class in which I expel all my creative juices, leaving me inspiration-less at nightfall. I swear, I'll be back more often now.

Have a great spring break--I'll be in Mexico. :D Finally, a chance to relax! :O