"She's in love, and the world gets blurry
She makes mistakes, and she's in no hurry to grow up
'Cause grownups, they don't understand her
Well it's a big, big world out there, but she's not scared...
She finds hope in the strangest places
She reads her books, and she knows the faces
Of everyone that ever said she's alone
She knows every word to the saddest songs
And she sings along, though her friends all tell her
That she can't sing...
She's eighteen, much too young
To know what a kiss like that would mean
But her lips, they were no stranger to the touch
And she likes it way too much."
--Mayday Parade, So Far Away

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Reality Found... and I Don't Like It.

The real world sucks.

If you can come up with a way to counter that, be my guest. I certainly can't, and I'm not just being a pessimist...

Yesterday, I deposited my first two paychecks at the bank and it finally sunk in how much money I don't have. Summer begins for me next Friday, and from here all I can see is work, college stuff, work, scholarship stuff, work, and maybe a little bit of fun.

I'm also trying to plan a spring break trip for next year with Cassie, Kailey, and Pinks. It's crazy. We're not wild partygoers, so Cancun is pretty much out, and the resort we've chosen is in the Riviera Maya. However, in order to be able to go, you have to sell one of your kidneys on the black market...

Oh, and gas prices! One week of working doesn't even fill my gas tank anymore. How am I supposed to get to school? To work? To anywhere? My friends and I decided that there will be much carpooling and much walking this summer. We have no other option.

This reality is terrible. Miserable, in fact. I'm seriously considering picking up a second job, a motion I am reluctant yet driven to make. If I do, I won't have any kind of last summer at all. If I don't, I'll just be broke.

Ick. I want to be five years old.

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