Stolen Words

I can't put how I'm feeling right now into my words. I had a very long weekend, the kind that wears you down not only mentally, but physically, and starts to tear at your heart after awhile.

If I must choose words, I'll steal some from Rascal Flatts for now. Say what you want about them, I like the majority of their music and I love this particular song. True, I'm not losing a lover [don't have one of those to lose, thank goodness] but the deeper emotions are right on track.

Lyrics for "I Feel Bad":

I should be out in that driveway stopping you
Tears should be rolling down my cheek
And I don't know why I'm not falling apart like I usually do
And how the thought of losing you is not killing me

I feel bad
That I can stand here strong, cold as stone
Seems so wrong, I can't explain it
Maybe it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb, I hate it
I feel bad that I don't feel bad

I can let myself be angry over wasted time
And sad about just throwing love away
I almost wish my heart was breaking, but I can't lie
All I want to do is turn the page

I feel bad
That I can stand here strong, cold as stone
Seems so wrong, I can't explain it
Maybe it's just I've cried so much
I'm tired and I'm numb, I hate it
I feel bad

That I don't feel bitter, alone
I just feel it's time, it's time to move on
I just gotta move on and on and on and on...