Round Trip, Much?

So today I had the pleasure of filling out an informational form that my school gave to each of us in the top ten [of the class rankings]. It was kind of comical, actually.

Scholarships? None...yet. Special awards? Umm. Yeah.

And then, my favorite question: Something unique about myself.

Lol. If only they knew.

Anyway... Maddy and I were watching Ghost Hunters tonight [while "doing English"] and it definitely got me thinking. See, I'm not afraid of death. If I've said it once, I've said it a thousand times, and I'll just keep saying it because it's true.

I'm not afraid to die. Pain? Well, I don't exactly look forward to that, really, but since I fall down so much anyway it shouldn't be anything shocking...

But along the same lines, I'm not afraid of the dead, either. If a ghost was to be sitting next to me right now, I would honestly be okay with that. Sure, I'm not about to go wandering around a creepy house at night, but I think it's more the living creepies that prevent me from doing so.

The dead, I've come to believe, are quite a bit nicer than the living, and actually have a purpose. Most of us just wander around aimlessly; they're here for a reason, and for that reason specifically.

And since I've done nothing to hurt them, they have no reason to hurt me. I respect them. I do my best to understand them, though that's mildly impossible.

Are the dead among us? Hell, yes. Open your eyes. I'm not talking about orbs and EMFs and poltergeists [lol "I will be your personal poltergeist"...from Stardust]. I'm talking about souls.

I have to believe they're here. Because if they weren't, I wouldn't be able to feel things the way I do. If souls weren't immortal, I wouldn't be able to perceive emotions like this--with that everlasting color imprint left on my mental eye. I feel it often in places where visible humans aren't standing...

They're nowhere and everywhere. I feel it. And though I've always told myself to trust fact over feeling, this time, they're the same thing.

Because the fact feels completely right.